Liz and I met our friends, a mom and daughter from adoption support, at the park this afternoon. It was a pleasant afternoon; our daughters, for the most part, play well together. The other mom and I have a great deal in common and talk comes easy. We also have a similar sense of humor, i.e., a bit off.

Such a pleasant, relaxed afternoon, resulting in a sense of peace and well-being. This sense of peace and well-being quickly vanished this evening following a phone call from my daughter, Liz's bio mom.

Drug use and mental illness are a frightening combination. I believe that my first obligation is to protect Liz. My daughter lacks judgement, she becomes paranoid easily and her anger turns into unbelievable rage.

I will not allow Liz to see her bio mom without me and most often not at all. I don't want Liz to witness my daughter's frightening behaviors. My daughter showed up on my door step a few nights ago and Liz happily let her in before I could intervene. This short visit was OK, not good, but OK. I allowed it to happen to avoid a disturbing scene in front of Liz. When my daughter left, she told Liz she would see her again soon.

The phone call between my daughter and I quickly turned ugly this evening. I offered to meet her at a park or MacDonald's Playland tomorrow. Neither of these choices were acceptable to her.

The conversation ended with my daughter telling me she was going to get the "authorities" involved and I would be arrested for kidnapping her child. After reporting me to the authorities, she informed me she was going to kill herself and carve my name on her chest, stating I would have to identify her body at the morgue and see the carving.

After the phone call, I called the sheriff's department; I attempted to explain the situation and gave as much information as possible regarding the phone conversation.
I explained my very real fear of my daughter hurting herself/taking her own life. I also fear that she may hurt me as her rage is unbelievable. She blames me for the lost of her daughter; she seems to have no recall of Child Protective Services taking Liz from her.

My daughter is homeless; I provided the sheriff's department with possible locations she may be. They were unable to locate her.